Way Back Day

I was going through old photos on my parents computer and came across this one....









I was trying to get the kids but my parents dog Boomer decided HEY I want to be in the pic!!! HAHA I just busted out laughing when I saw this pic!!

NEW BLOG!!!

I have started a new blog for myself. It is going to be all about my ups and downs with my new journey to losing weight, excising more, and training for a 13.1 mile run in Oct 2009. For the first time I am not going to pull anymore punches with myself. If I cant be honest with myself anymore then who can I be honest with. I decided to do this new blog so everyone can see where I am at and so that I can also look back on this new path and see just how far I have come. Also so I can see where I have fallen. I want to be encouraged but also told the truth to. No hard feeling only honesty and encouragement!! I am very much looking forward to this new road that I am going to be starting for myself, my husband and my son and all my friends!!


The name of my new blog is:
What Goes Up IS Coming DOWN
http://brittswillpower.blogspot.com/

Way Back....

Wednesday. Ok so maybe it wasn't too way back but it seems like forever ago. Kasen was just turning 3 and Robbie was just turning 1. It is hard to believe that Robbie is now 3 and Kasen is 5. I am just thrown back by this.

Cooking baking with Robbie for School

Tonight Robbie and I baked some cookies for his school!!

Worried

So tomorrow (Monday) I finally get to go into the Doc's and start my process of trying to find out why Rob and I have not and can not for the life of us get pregnant. We have been fighting tooth and nail for about 6-8 months now to get an apt like this. You see in the military I cant just call and say I would like to see this kind of doctor for this kind of problem. I have to go from one doctor to the next to see if the can fix my problem. But you see the problem is, is one doctor to the next doesn't feel like putting the time and the effort into someone who has a problem who would take them more the 10 mins to try and fix so they tell you to wait a few more months and make another apt. at which time you have to start from the bottom of the latter again. Well I have finally hit a doc who realizes that hey this girl really might have something wrong with her lets get her into a doctor who deals with this kind of stuff and get the ball rolling. So with that said tomorrow morning at 9:30ish (8:30 ish central time) I will be seeing a doctor who specializes in my area of problem. Please pray that everything goes smoothly and that I don't just get passed from one person to the next. That I am dealing with a women. That I don't have an emotional brake down walking trough the doors (this is the same hospital that I went to when everything started with the loss of Joey and I am having a hard time dealing with that in its self right now, for some reason when the holidays come not having Joey around hits me hard). And last but not least that I get some type of answers out of all of this.
Part of me is scared to death that I am going to walk out of there tomorrow and they are going to tell me that Mrs. Razzano you can no longer have kids. Now if that is what it is then that is what it is. Are they going to have answers like that on just the first day I don't know probably not but for some reason that is a HUGE fear of mine. That would crush me and Rob. We both so badly just want to have at least one more kid. We want Robbie to have that little brother or sister that he is always asking for now (expecally now that he gets a little bit of what happened to Joey). I don't know, now I am rambling. I am putting this in the Lords hands where it was in the first place and trusting him. He has the pen and is writing our life's stories. He is the author of my life NOT me or the Doctors.

Question Of The Day?

How do you keep a 3 year old who has 4 stitches above his right eye to NOT RUN AROUND? Nothing for nothing but I don't mind him running around but now that Robbie has stitches above his eye I am freaking out that he might fall and bust them open or that one of the dogs is going to hit him the wrong way when he is playing with them. WHAT DO I DO????? I DO NOT want to have to see him put into a straight jacket like thing again and numbed and have to have new ones put in. I tell him ALL DAY LONG if you brake them you will have to go through everything ALL OVER AGAIN, but it just doesn't fase him and he keeps going back to what he was doing before..... What am I to do?

A little update

Well we are finally starting to settle a little bit more into our new house but still have a VERY long way to go with all the unpacking! A little up date on what has been going on here, Robbie started his very first day of preschool yesterday and LOVES it. He actually looks forward to going to bed now so he can get up and go to "cool" (school) the next morning. I don't know what I am going to do when Saturday and Sunday roll around! I on the other hand am at a complete loss from 9am till 12:30pm (the hours that he is in school). For right now I am using it as some much lets get some unpacking done time. Today I went to the doctor. Rob and I have decided that we have been trying for a year and a half now to get pregnant and it is NOT happing (even trying EVERYTHING under the sun to do so) so I am going to go and see a specialist to see if there is something wrong with me. So if you could all be in prayer for that. I don't have an apt for that right now, I have to wait 48 hours from today to call and make that apt. I am hoping that I can get seen or the ball rolling at least before we leave for IL for Christmas vacation. Other then that we have just been enjoying our new house very much!! I will have some pics up soon of the new place after I have time to put some stuff up on our walls!! and it isn't so messy with all the stuff of being unpacked!