As many of you know tomorrow marks the 1 year mark for Joey. I ask that you all pray for Rob and I as we try to deal with tomorrow. I will not be home to blog about anything this weekend because Rob and I are going to be getting away alone for the weekend. I will however share more with you all on Monday of how today (21)- the 23 went for us. I just ask for lot's of prayer this weekend. Also I have since today (21st) had the skin removed from my hand with my burn. The blister finally gave way and it is nothing but raw flesh right now (banged up of course). So if you could all pray for little pain as this starts to regain some new skin that would be GREAT!!! Thank you all for being there for me with all of this. I love you and miss you all!!!
Friday, September 21, 2007
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
Alright I might be a couple days off on this but around this time last year I found out through ultrasound that I had regained some water around Joey, not alot but some!! We where SOOOO EXCITED that there was finally something around him!! Well later that early afternoon I was given some med's to help me with some stuff and not even a half hour later I was throwing up due to those med's. Well needless to say when I threw up it also forced any of the water that I had regained out. I WAS NOT HAPPY. I felt like it was all my fault. If I had chosen NOT to take this medications then the water would still be around Joey and not all over me in the bed. I was given medications to be able to have a BM because I had not had one in over a week so they where trying to get me to be able to go because my stomach was REALLY starting to cramp. So that was how I started my day off about year ago today. Later on in the afternoon was next too one of the hardest days of my life. I had to lay in bed and talk to a Doc who told me that when and if I do deliver my baby before the 23-24 week mark they where going to do NOTHING for him because he was not "viable". I was SICK to my stomach and pissed off at the same time. Some of the things that where talked about that I can REALLY remember where this. I had the doc tell me that if and when Joey comes and it is before the 23-24 mark they where NOT going to do ANYTHING to try and save him. I said I cant take that I cant let you do that. I asked him so if I do deliver him and he comes out breathing you are going to just let him suffocate to death?? I thought that you guys where here to SAVE lives?? I gave him this to think about. I asked him if he has any kids himself, and he said well yes I do. I asked him ok well if your kid got hit by an 18 wheeler and they brought him to the ER and the doc took one look at him and said ummmm... well I dont THINK he is going to make it so I am not going to do any work on him to at least TRY and save him. Would you fight for your kids life. Would you tell him to get to work and try to save your kids life?? He said yes but this is different. I said NO it is not different they are both living breathing human beings, mine is just inside of me. You could tell that he was NOT happy with me after I gave him that little seniero to think about. They where going to make me sign a consent form giving them permission to even attempt to work on Joey cause they DONT work on babies below the 23-24 wk mark. HOW SAD IS THAT. I told him that I cant see who he is to tell me that my son should our shouldn't have a fighting chance if he came out alive (breathing then having to suffocate). I told him that I would not be able to live with myself as a person or as a mother if I didnt put up EVERY fighting chance for my son. At the end of EVERY day I need and wanted to feel like I did EVERYTHING I could do for Joey. At the end of the talk the doc told me that he had NEVER seen someone fight for their child so much in a situation like mine. So that made me feel a little bit better yet upset more cause I thought that it was even sad that I had to put that fight up.
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Sunday, September 16, 2007
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Friday, September 14, 2007
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Wednesday, September 12, 2007
Today marks the one year of everything that has happened with Joey. At this time last year Rob and I had JUST moved down here to FL. We had just gotten here on the 10 of September. When we had gotten down here we had to go straight to the ER due to the fact that I had started bleeding VERY badly. We went to the ER only to find out that the guys was going to do a ANOTHER pap on me (my 2nd one in 3 weeks). When he came back into the room he had told me that I had an infection and that is why I was bleeding. He put me on some meds and sent me "home" A.K.A the hotel because we didn't have a home at this point we where living at the Navy Lodge on base. So I went "home" did what I had to do with the meds and went to bed. The next day was crunch time to find a place because at this point we had a budget truck that HAD to be back by the next day (we are now on Sept 11 (2006)). So while Rob went to unload the budget truck with ALL of our stuff I went out house hunting. A girl I had meat previous to us moving down here at Rob's OCS graduation had help me by getting on line and looking up different house in our price range for us (take into mind we where renting). I called her up and she gave me the name and number to 4 or 5 different renters. AWESOME the first one I called was able to get me in to look at it THAT day!! Cool so I went to look at it. She knew our situation with HAVING to get into a place ASAP. So she gave keys on spot and said we would work everything out later!!! AWSOME so now I have a place to live, Rob and another guy came and unloaded the BIG stuff into the house that night. The stuff that we would not be able to take back to the house without the budget truck. So we finished to the unloading of the truck and went back to the Navy Lodge for yet another night. The next day I was Cramping from the min I woke up. We went and got some food, did a little bit of running around and it kept getting wrose. At this point we where at the budget rental place returning the truck. I told Rob that when we leave here we have to take another trip the the ER cause I am cramping REALLY bad and want to get this looked at. Yeah he said no prob. We where at the budget rental place for a while because we where getting a credit on our truck because of some MAJOR issues we had with it on the way down here (braking down on the side of the road for 6 hours is what it was to be exact). Well while waiting I had to go the the bathroom so I went to the bathroom and had noticed that I was starting to bleed a little bit more so knowing that I was going to the ER I went back out to the car to get another pad. Well when I opened the door to the van I felt like I was peeing my pants and just couldn't stop. I RIGHT away knew what was happening. I waddled as fast as I could to go tell Rob what was happening. I got inside and told Rob WE NEED TO LEAVE NOW. MY WATER JUST BROKE. Thankfully we where right around the corner from the Navel Hospital. Got into the ER they got me back to a room and used the little test strips to tell if my water really had broken and indeed it had. I just started to loss it. I don't remember a whole lot after all that happened. I do remember a lady telling me "Well be thankful that you have one beautiful baby." I looked at her and said "NO I have two beautiful babies now get me up to the baby floor where they know what they are doing",I remember them talking about wanting to do ANOTHER PAP but didn't have the tools nor the ability to do so. And I also remember Rob and Lisa (the lady that had helped find a place to live) going in and out of the room cause they where PISSED at the fact that it was taking them so long to get me up to the labor and delivery floor. Those are the few things that I remember. about what happened after I got to the ER. I then got moved up to the labor and delivery floor about an hour or so after getting to the hospital. When getting up there I met LT. Taylor. this lady helped me through a lot of this. She was the mid wife type of lady for that floor. She is the first one that took me into a room to do the pelvic exam. After all that I got moved to a room where I was told that I would be on COMPLETE bed rest (laying down) so that we could try and regain some water around Joey. That was pretty much my fist day in the hospital with Joey. I am going to cont. to post some of what my days where like for the next few weeks. I have never typed out my story with Joey before and I think by doing this it will help me remember all of what really did go on and help me look at the good that did come out of all of this.
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Wednesday, September 5, 2007
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